Dear Women of the Church

Dear Women of the Church, I owe you an apology. I have sinned against you and I am sorry. Ladies, I have been called to love you and I have failed. Instead, I have idolized you. I have typecast you. I have oversimplified you. Mostly, I have feared you. For the entirety of my fourteen… Continue reading Dear Women of the Church

Sowing the Word in Tears

“Your greatest harvest will often come from the word of God you have sown in tears and sown in affliction.”                                                                      … Continue reading Sowing the Word in Tears

You Can’t Sit Here: 20 Years Later

For 8 months, I’ve had this post saved in my drafts on WordPress. For eight months all it has consisted of is a title “You Can’t Sit Here” and the phrase “Ivy and Sasha” in the body of the blog. For eight months, I’ve gone right past this blog draft on my way to write… Continue reading You Can’t Sit Here: 20 Years Later

Old Hurts

Some hurts have a way of digging in deep and popping up at inconvenient moments. I finally stopped crying this morning long enough to emerge from my car in the back parking lot and sneak into my office. I kept my hair down, which is the secret for these kinds of days, a drape around… Continue reading Old Hurts

Five Things I Should Have Learned in Kindergarten (but didn’t catch on to until I was in my 30’s) Part 2

The Second Thing: It’s not their opinions that matter. I have always cared too much, entirely too much, about what other people thought of me. In eighth grade I finally found my first real friend. Nicole Dionisio was the kind of girl who collected stray people: misfits, oddballs, and weirdos were all okay in her… Continue reading Five Things I Should Have Learned in Kindergarten (but didn’t catch on to until I was in my 30’s) Part 2

Whom Shall I Fear?

The following is an excerpt from the book I’m working on “Songs of Sanity,” a memoir of my journey through depression and anxiety using the Psalms.  The LORD is my light and my salvation; Whom shall I fear? The LORD is the stronghold of my life; Of whom shall I be afraid? Psalms 27:1-2 It… Continue reading Whom Shall I Fear?

Friended

In July of 2011 I finally quit smoking. It should have been easy. At various points in my life I had given up crystal meth, smoking weed, getting drunk, promiscuity, and numerous other destructive habits. Each of them I set down, walked away from, and never looked back towards. Yet, something about laying down this… Continue reading Friended